This is my three year anniversary of this project.
I sewed my first Crane on February 18, 2013.
There’s proof. The first picture I took of this undertaking.
Date: February 18, 2016
Days Spent on Project: 1093 (I think this means this number is wrong? Must have lost track during the periods when I had to abandon this because of Life and Work.)
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: TBD
Music I listened to while sewing: Sia has a new album! Has it really been almost two years since “Chandelier” exploded onto the radio? I’ve been listening to the song “I’m Alive” on repeat since last night.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: My parents sent me a book called The Science of Happiness a few weeks ago. I started reading it on Monday, after I finished with the Alexander Hamilton biography. I’m almost done with it; after the density of early American politics, this reading is a breeze to do!
I have to say that it’s enlightening.
I have to say that it’s not necessary encouraging.
I have never felt like my emotions are as out of my hands as I have after reading this book. If a body’s emotion and my feelings (pleasure and happiness) are entirely by-products of chemicals and neurons being able to work properly, how can I really fix things that possibly aren’t functioning?
How can I fix something that might possibly be ingrained into the chemical make-up of my body and the structure of my brain?
How can I fix something that my body… just… does?
I’m sure this is meant to be inspiring and educational, but… damn… do I feel at a loss now.