I haven’t felt right all day.
I feel disappointed, confused, adrift, lost, and a little stupid.
I am trying to see this as a challenge and an opportunity. I am trying to feel empowered to take control of this situation.
Today, I need to remind myself that Life isn’t linear.
Date: February 6, 2016
Days Spent on Project: 1081
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: TBD
Music I listened to while sewing: More of this week’s “Discover Weekly” playlist, courtesy of Spotify.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: Only I can be my best advocate.
I don’t have any obligations to this location and this theater.
I do not have any anchors tying me to here.
I am able-bodied and capable.
I am intelligent.
I do have a support system in my family.
I work hard, and enjoy doing so.
I have ability, and I usually believe I have talent.
I have the ability to form an opinion and stating it.
I have been able to make good friends and connections in the past.
I am not stuck.
I am not at the end.
I am not winding down.
I am not over.
I am not alone.
I can feel; I am not disconnected from the world around me.
I can think for myself; I do not require others to do my thinking for me.
I am strong, even though I am not big.
I am not better than other human, but I am good.
I have experience.
I crave more experience.
I dislike being bored.
I help. I can help. I do help.
I am loyal to those who need loyalty. I am loyal to those who want it.
I deserve love.
I deserve attention.
I deserve connection.
I want connection.
I am not an island.
I am going to get over this.
I will take control of this and move forward and keep going.
I have a fire in me, and I see no need to extinguish it.