Today was a trying day.
Date: November 13, 2015
Days Spent on Project: 997
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: TBD
Music I listened to while sewing: The Broadway cast recording of Hamilton.
Can you imagine some at work dared to say that this musical wasn’t good.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: So much happened today.
6 hours of fittings today for our Christmas production, and I enjoyed every second of it. It felt right. It felt good. And it looked good. And the actors I worked with enjoyed it.
I AM GOOD AT THIS.
That the theater company I currently work for likes to insist I’m not good at designing costumes kinda floors me. I really do think it’s personal at this point. It must be. There’s no way around it; actors like me and the costume shop likes me and the audience feedback seems to like my work, so… ?
But, less selfishly, what the hell is happening in the world that the massacre in Paris happened today?
More selfishly: if a guy I knew in high school asked me out, would you go? Would you go if he lived in Austin, Texas? Would you go if he was a part of something that seemed definitive in high school?
Today I felt mortal as well. Funny: when you’re 36 you start feeling how your body isn’t meant to live forever.
Anyway today has been long and difficult.