Another day is winding down. Thankfully, too.
Date: September 30, 2015
Days Spent on Project: 953
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: TBD
Music I listened to while sewing: A new song tonight, and it’s been on retreat for a while! It’s called “Judge Me” and it’s by Superwalkers. Love it!
Thoughts/Feelings behind the day: I really feel like today was incredibly long, almost never-ending, but that not much could happen. We had a company-wide staff “diversity training” session that lasted 8 hours. While almost a hundred of us were grouped around small tables, we listened to various kinds of diversity “terms” so that we could all be on the same page. We did a few small group exercises. We had a handful of opportunities to discuss our thoughts with the group.
In the end, I think it’s important to have those conversations– especially in a theater where so many people seem to skew towards one or two demographics– but I had hoped the eight hours could be spent discussing the culture in our building and how we could be a Leader by choosing more diverse plays, playwrights, directors, designers, actors, crew, etc. It seems like we all want to Talk The Talk, but I’m not sure if anyone in the building has much of an interest to Walk The Walk, to implement change, to lead.
Again, I’m all for talking about diversity, its issues, its differences, its obstacles, the hardships, the lessons, and so on… but when can we make it less about “an idea” or “problem” that happens beyond our building’s walls, and when can we make it about investigating how our choices to produce work almost always by (white) men, with the same (white) directors, with the same (white) designers, and so on. Yes, diversity is more about issues of skin color; the term diversity is extremely multifaceted and angled and varied and nuanced. But, let’s take on some of the burden to broaden our work and the artists that we bring in and utilize and collaborate with… right?
On a side note, I felt like a total bitch today. The one work issue I dealt with concerns a stage manager who entered the costume shop late last night and took REAL costume pieces for our next show because actors wanted to start wearing things. That’s a big no-no. Tonight, I caught her doing the same thing; I got upset with her because she knows she’s not supposed to do this AT ALL. She laid a large guilt trip on me, but… really? We spent all day talking about privilege and I just caught you entering my shop after hours to take things you don’t have permission to take?
I’m sorry, but follow the rules. I have the rules for a reason. These costume items get lost (too too easily), and I’m always the one who has to deal with it, regardless of who lost it.
Sometimes people make me tense. It’s hard enough to corral the artistic process when budgets and resources and time are slim. Why do people keep having to throw wrenches into the process or try to bend “rules” on top of that?
It’s 7:21pm, and it’s almost dark. The days really are getting shorter.
Time to put today to bed.
One day at a time.