“Wherever you go, there you are.”
Date: November 28, 2014
Days Spent on Project: 648
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: Anne G.
Anne was another costumer that I had the good fortune of working with a few times in New York. The first time was back in January 2010, at a photo shoot in the East Village for the Broadway production of Come Fly Away. The entire design team was at the shoot– and would be the entire day– and we needed someone to continue to shop and source supplies for us. The Associate Costume Designer- Amy C.- called Anne and reserved her for the day.
She was a lot of fun to have around that day, and the few other times that she came to help us out.
Later that summer, Anne called me to ask if I wouldn’t mind helping her on some work for Broadway Bares. Not having worked it before, I was intrigued and super curious, so of course I volunteered. And for 14 hours, I worked with Anne and another designer named Vanessa in the very crowded red basement room at Roseland. I glued Swarovski crystals onto pasties and shoes and accessories and then double-sided tape any number of things onto dancers… It was a lot of fun.
The last time I ran into Anne, I was shopping near Union Square and she was running to the gym. She was in the middle of wedding preparations and very happy and excited for everything that was about to happen.
Music I listened to while sewing: Still with Kesha.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: The past few days– since Tuesday– I’m remembering the feelings I was wallowing in during those last few months in New York and, boy, do I have to get out of this rut.
My friend Gene, still in New York, told me that nostalgia is a sickness; I need to figure out a way to get over it.
“What did you have here that you don’t have there?”
“You have more than you realize.”
I feel it’s important to remember that I did not have a boyfriend in New York. I did not have steady (or well-paying) work. I was financially insecure. I did not live near a ton of friends. I was struggling to stay afloat. Sure, every once and a while, I’d work on something amazing. But is that how I wanted to live?
Here, the struggle isn’t present. I just need to be patient. It’s only been four months and two weeks. This is a new city. I had never been here before. I didn’t know anyone. It’s all a change and change is hard, but…
… Here we go.
Off to work. Off to the gym. I need to stay busy and take it one day at a time.