Yesterday I bought lots of plaid flannel shirts and heavy wool socks. Portland is changing me.
Date: November 9, 2014
Days Spent on Project: 629
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: Michael H.
Michael was another friend from Alison’s circle of friends that enveloped me for a time in 2009 when I needed a group to belong to. She had met him her freshman year at Harvard, when they either lived near each other or had similar classes or… however people meet other people their first year at college.
I will be honest! I didn’t stay friends with him too long, in this world or in the land of Facebook, for a very simple reason: he reminded me too much of the guy who had just dumped me after 14 months to focus on his career. Now, I’m not saying that Mike and Jimmy were actually similar in any way at all, but my mind connected them and it started to make me uncomfortable.
Hanging out with him, the few times we did, always made me wonder what Jimmy was doing or made me compare their behaviors and attitudes and so on and so forth.
I couldn’t deal with that.
So, I did the (obviously) mature thing and de-friended him on Facebook and slowly stopped going to things that I knew he would be at. Like I said, back in 2009 and 2010, I was operating very selfishly. And Mike was, and still is, a nice guy. He is.
I just couldn’t take it.
Music I listened to while sewing: I’ve got a Spotify playlist on this morning called “Morning Walk.
I really want to be listening to Taylor Swift… and I don’t know why!
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: So, I’m designing one of the upcoming shows at the theater I work at in Portland. Long story, and I’m not sure I know the entirety of it, but someone supposedly backed out and I was asked to fill in. When I took this job, and the details were casually hammered out, it was understood that I would possibly design for them, but in future seasons as I got settled and turned the costume shop around.
That detail didn’t last.
Anyway, I’ve been drawing and redrawing and reworking designs for the show, and I think it’s going to be a lot of fun. I’m getting fabrics from New York, and spending too much money on them, but they all look great and I think will deliver a great product.
And, because of labor issues, I’m hiring an outside draper to create the patterns and build two costumes, one of which will be probably featured more often than not in pictures. She’s someone I vaguely knew of and was connected to back east in New York. She worked at Yale years before I went to school there, and knows all the designers I do. That she lives three hours away from me in Portland seems like a stroke of luck.
Working with her and talking with her over these sketches has been exciting, and certainly challenging. She actually looks at the sketch and gives her opinion! I haven’t had that experience in the four months I’ve been here, and it feels very much like the attitude I encountered back east. I missed that.
And I think the product is going to be better for it. Right now, I’m glad to have made this connection out here, and I hope this is an opportunity for the both of us.
It does mean that I’m redrawing some ideas and rethinking some choices, but it’s making it more specific (to my point of view), and hopefully making a better product. We’ll see.
Happy Sunday. Off to work to draw.
On a side note: I need some distractions soon, or I’m just going to keep drawing and sewing cranes and nail the coffin lid shut on my social life here.