Having an 8am – 6pm theater job is different.
Date: October 6, 2014
Days Spent on Project: 595
Location: NW Portland, OR
Person I would have sent it to: Shaneeka H.
Shaneeka was another one of the performers in the Broadway cast of Fela!, back in 2009.
She was not cast in the off-Broadway production the summer before, so I didn’t make her acquaintance until the summer of 2009, when rehearsals started.
I will always remember her as someone who would look at me, with what seemed like a knowing wink, and smile at me. She seemed to be someone who understood my job, knew that I was in the room with everyone else, and saw that I was a part of the team.
One morning, it must have been late June or early July, I was getting my morning coffee at the Starbucks on the north side of 42nd Street, a few doors down from the entrance to the 42nd Street Studios and the Duke rehearsal space. I was a few people ahead of her, getting my usual for the time (“a Grande coffee”), and she nodded her head at me as I wiggled my way through to the counter to add Whole Milk and one Raw Sugar.
She mentioned my outfit, and the grey leather belt I sported daily that summer. It was nothing big, but the observation felt earned.
I always enjoy it when people take the time, even if it is a moment, and let you know that they acknowledge your presence.
If I had known I was going to dedicate this Crane to her, I would have made it a bolder pattern.
Music I listened to while sewing: Spotify again. It’s music fit for the background, meaning I can’t tell you anything specific about it.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: I would like a home. I would like an anchor. I would like security.
I would like time. I would like independence.
I would like confidence. I would self-esteem.
I would like presence. I would like acknowledgement.
I would like humility. I would like ego.
I would like dependence.
I would like attraction.
I would like a rug. I would like a table. I would like a lamp.
I would like not to spend any money right now.
I would like a plateau.
I would like a mountain, as opposed to a boulder.
I would like a need.
I would like desire.
I would like a nap.
I would like to un-do a lot.
I would like to do more.
I would like a visit.
I would like to go.