Telling myself to be patient and live in the circumstances I find myself in.
I’m not doing very well
Date: May 19, 2014
Days Spent on Project: 456
Location: Conway, Arkansas
Person I would have sent it to: I think I’m done with my period in Wisconsin, which means I should move on to the next shows and productions I tackled.
Wisconsin was the summer of 2007, after I left and headed back to New York, I wound up having a series of shows that were piled one on top of the other. I opened one, flew out to work on the next, and then would still have to fly somewhere else to work on another.
The fall of 2007 was crazy busy, but also really educational.
I came back to New York with three jobs lined up. The first was a “small” production that was to be performed as a part of the New York Musical Theatre Festival. A friend, Noah, called me as I was leaving for New York and asked if I might be able to take the show off his hands. He was already busy with a shopping job for a costume shop in the city; he didn’t have time for the amount of work he would need to do on the show.
So, I said yes. I met with the young producer when I got back to the city. We talked about the scope of the show, the period, the cast that had signed on for it, and also what it would be like to work on a show that was connected to this festival. I would get a small fee and a small budget.
That producer was named Emily M. I believe, and I could be wrong, that she was a recent graduate from NYU. It was one of her first experiences producing a musical like that.
I don’t really know what’s happened to her in the seven (!) years since that fall. I haven’t run across her in any of my work or travels since then.
But some things I learned: always read a script before you sign onto a project (I still have a problem with this), always be realistic with your designs, this was the first time I realized that some things aren’t worth drawing sketches for (just take pictures of research and make collages), and never believe anyone when they say a show is Broadway-bound unless there is an A-list management team at the top.
This was also the show that taught me some people just want someone to do labor and not really have a design opinion or idea or concept. Sometimes, shows just need someone to sit backstage and quick-rig garments. And that’s fine, but it isn’t the same as designing a piece. It’s just not.
Music I listened to while sewing: I’ve discovered this album by Clint Mansell called “Moon” (maybe it’s a soundtrack?) and it’s my everything this morning. I really wish I had thought to use it as a part of The California Project.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: Yesterday I had a personal breakthrough.
The short summary is that I don’t want this production of Pippin to be my last show. If my work concludes after this experience, do I want to “go out” on this note?
On the other hand, if this experience continues in the direction where it’s headed, why not “go out” on this note?
And if I fade away after Arkansas, where do I want to go and what do I want to do?