I think I’m going to start doing some tone-on-tone Cranes for a bit. Something about blocks of solid (more or less) colors seems intriguing right now.
How do you get a Crane to stand out when they’re so colored by their environment?
Date: May 21, 2013
Location: Apartment, Washington Heights, NYC
Person I would have sent it to: Eric G. I had such the innocent crush on him throughout our shared time together in high school. I mean, it was “My So-Called Life” swoon-worthy.
Does he know I exist? Does he think I’m cute? What does he think about me?
Not to mention: is he gay like me? (That question would be almost 100% always be a resounding negative until I went to college.)
Sigh. With his long hair that was parted down the middle and baggy corduroy jeans and plaid over-sized flannel shirts and used car and quiet demeanor, he was practically my Jordan Catalano to my Rickie Vasquez. SIGH.
Music I listened to today: Nothing exciting. More music from Lana Del Rey. I need suggestions!
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: How is it 8pm already? How did this day fly by? How does it feel like I got nothing accomplished.
I worry that I’m not working hard enough, even though I worked from 9am until 6pm and am still figuring out paperwork at home. I worry that my dog is bored and frustrated. I worry that the people I’ve hired to help aren’t getting it. I worry that I’m overbooked. I worry that a job last month is refusing to pay me and I have no course of action.
How do we know we’re making a difference? How do we know we’re noticed? How do we know that we’re good enough?
I worry that I have nothing to say today about this Crane or this project or what I’m doing.
I’m ending for the day. Sorry to be so obtuse, but I just got another email about work.