Block 67: April 25, 2013

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There are days when it takes 10 minutes to sew a 4 inch straight seam.

There are days when the bobbin runs out one inch away from finishing the completed block.

There are days when the sewing needle snaps in two when you go over pressed seams. (Not sure how that happened; but after replacing the needle, the machine felt so much happier!)

It’s 9:30pm. I’m having a glass of wine. It’s been THAT kind of day…

Date: April 25, 2013

Crane: 67

Days Spent on Project: 67

Location: Apartment, Washington Heights, NYC

Person I would have sent it to: Oh, let’s take a break from Middle School.

Today, I realized that I hadn’t given one of these to my late Uncle Larry; he passed away the summer before I started my first year at the Yale School of Drama.

He was mentally challenged, as is politically correct to say these days. I guess.

We weren’t close, most likely because I kept myself away from him. But he was a nice soul. He was a kind person.

Seeing him in his casket, and hearing the eulogies directed towards him at his funeral was extremely moving.

It was a sad lesson for me to learn; I had never taken the chance or let myself have the chance to be his friend. It’s shameful to admit, but my anxiety around him kept me from knowing him.

That is shameful. It just is. So, Uncle Larry, this Crane is for you. I actually think it looks better in person than the picture, as it’s more of a golden yellow and white and blue.

Thank you.

Music I listened to while sewing: I couldn’t think of anything to get my mood back on track today (what a day!), so I went with the old stand-by… Yes, you guessed it: Sunday in the Park with George.

And, strangely, it took me the entire playlist to finish the Crane (which meant I was slow). But, on a better note, when I finished and tagged the Crane with a safety pin and a bias-tape label, the audience recorded on the final song erupted into applause.

That kinda made the day worth it.

Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: Today, I want to tell myself something; by extension, I also want to tell you. You’ve followed along for 67 days or so. We all deserve to hear it, at this point.

Don’t. Give. Up.

I don’t want to give up.

I don’t want you to give up.

Let’s not give up.

Maybe you’re frustrated with the dating prospects in your life. Maybe there aren’t enough hours in the day. Maybe you can’t quite get yourself to the gym or to the park for a run like you feel you need to.

Maybe your bank account is a little low. Maybe work seems to suck more out of you than you can stand. Maybe work is just boring.

Maybe life is tedious.

Maybe you feel boring.

Maybe someone is getting farther along in life or their career or whatnot faster than you. Maybe nobody notices you. Maybe the wrong person notices you.

Please don’t give up.

“I have so much to give.”

“I am a gift that has been given here.”

“I am a gift that can keep giving.”

Okay?

I’d write more about today specifically, but I’m so very incredibly exhausted. When my schedule is back to normal tomorrow (hopefully), I’ll bring more to the plate.

Good night. And good luck, friends.

Cheers.

6 thoughts on “Block 67: April 25, 2013

  1. Pingback: Specifics | antarabesqueblog

  2. Thank you, once again, for your astute life observations. I may have to compile your pages into a flip book so that I can pick out a random portion to read. Well, won’t have to do that for a couple more years, because we have you “LIVE” right now!

    • A friend told me recently to start keeping all of this in some kind of hard copy format; he said it would probably be better to start now than in a few hundred Cranes time! (I agreed with him.)

      And you’re welcome. Hope life is well.

      • Your friend is correct. It would be so quick and easy to do the hard copies as you go. Life is good. I’m making it so!

  3. I just found your blog entry by searching ‘crafts’, and I really enjoyed the read. I didn’t look farther than this particular post before commenting, but I did want to mention that although I don’t know the purpose of your project, the particular story behind today’s entry was extremely touching.
    A gentle reminder of what I may miss by never stepping out of my comfort zone.
    Thank you for sharing!

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