Happy Monday, everyone! It’s late (9pm), so I feel like I just squeaked by my daily deadline here.
No idea how the day sped by like it did. How is it this late already?
Date: March 11, 2013
Location: Apartment, Washington Heights, NYC
Person I would have sent it to: My Aunt, Connie.
Music I listened to while sewing: Today, on the recommendation of a friend, I chose the Original Cast Recording of Parade by Jason Robert Brown. He told me it’s a show he listens to whenever he needs some sort of emotional release; feeling as down as I have these past few days, I hoped it would do the same for me. No such luck: I spent the entire listen wanting to change it to Ragtime, the show that practically leaves me in tears whenever I listen to it.
My friend did say it was kind of poetic, to think of a tear-strewn quilt, when I told him it was the soundtrack for my sewing time today.
Thoughts/Feelings behind the block: Let me just remind us all never to take anything for granted. Whether it be a friend, a partner, a job, a boyfriend/girlfriend, a mentor, a home, a bank account, etc. etc, nothing is ever rock solid.
I keep reminding myself to take it one day at a time with this project. Yes, it’s important to live in the moment and stay focused on what’s in the immediate now of your life.
It goes for both the good and the bad. The peaks and valleys. The highs and lows. Keep walking. Keep your head held high.
One of my friends just told me she was diagnosed with breast cancer last December. I haven’t seen her since August. The next time I see her, she will have undergone rounds of chemotherapy.
I’m in the running for a job. It would be something that would get my mind going again, keep me busy, and get my bank account padded for a spell. It would be nice. I’ve been told it’s happening, but I’ve been told that before.
The guy I’ve been flirting with just confessed he’s seeing someone casually right now. He announced it for no reason. I’ve been firmly in “no date” land for a while; I was about to end that. Think again.
Despite all this, and today’s boredom and the news I’ve been given and my overwhelming anxiety about ALL THE THINGS that seems to be a running through-line in my life, I did not have a glass of wine tonight. I did not order take out and watch movies. I worked on my taxes and another quilt for a friend.
And on that note: one day at a time, friends.
Time to walk The Dog.